Today, I'm indifferent.
There is a saying that says that "the opposite of love is not hate but indifference". And indifference is the most dangerous feeling you could be experimenting.
Time is an assassin and I'm just there sitting,watching, waving goodbye. no feelings attached to my surroundings whatsoever. no position to be taken, no opinion to be made. there is no strive for more, no effort for anything. even as I'm writing this, my ideas are being hardly of assistance.
this void is not scaring me, it has become my shelter from everything. a comfort zone in a world of ups and downs, black, white and so many shades in between....hey ! life in one shade of gray is so much better. .. At least that's what I keep saying to myself.
Is it just a phase? or has the world drained all the feelings from me. but I can't keep on blaming it on this or that. I can't keep blaming it on you. I have no one to blame but myself.
On the way of discovery, I invested my mind and heart in the world, in the people around me, in relationships, in conversations and in endless back and forth... On the way of discovery, I have lost myself.
It's funny really, because at some point, You were the best platform to jump from beyond myself.
I've watched you walking out on me. I've watched you leaving me stuck between a rock and a hard place. I've watched you take everything I've ever had to offer... I've watched you... and forgot to look at myself.
you left my soul empty... so please,come in, and fill in the Blank.